Okay so here is what has been going on. I feel like I need to "step up my game" a bit in life. I need to be more of a 'go getter.' i need to start calling people more often to hang out, and to make an effort to be someone. i can't be so passive anymore. or else life will just pass me by. i need to set goals every day for things i want to accomplish. i need to make that study schedule i have been talking about forever but never actually did anything. i need to talk to my counselor about the DAT and how to prepare for it. i need to make myself more serious. i need to approach life with a serious outlook. if i don't take control of my life, someone else will...

This is for the girl that got ostracized for talking to too many guys at once
this is for the naiive girl that let herself get walked all over.
this is for the girl who got nasty messages written on her dorm's door.
This is for the girl who a guy tried to sell to a friend
this is for the girl who was passed around like a sex toy from guy to guy
This is for the girl who thought she finally found a guy who loved her heart, only to find he was yet another womanizer
this is for the girl that got called a "lesbian" for being a virgin
This is for all the girls out there who were isolated by all their friends once they gave in to an aggressive boyfriend.
This is for the girl who feels she has nothing else to offer to guys except her body.
This is for the girl who feels she is not capable of being loved, not worthy of a relationship.
this is for the girl that was verbally abused and torn down into nothing, nothing more than a "fucking hole"
This is for the girl who was told she "looks better bent over"
This is for the girl that was dumped by her boyfriend in  the middle of sex because she was not enjoying it, and was only doing it to make him satisfied
This is for the girl whose dreams of a future were shattered by ruthless girls who kept beating her down, telling her she was "shit"
This is for the girl who was raped, but nobody believes her because she was not a virgin to begin with and was dating the guy who did it. or worse, she "asked for it"
This is for the girl that got birthday cake smashed onto door on her birthday, saying, "You're as easy as a piece of cake."
This is for the girl that could not face the world and fled.
This is for the girl who had nobody to talk to, nobody to keep her company, except the guys that you kept throwing onto her since she was "easy and would sleep with just anyone"
this is for the girl that felt so lonely that even though she knew the guy was using her, she didn't care because bad attention was better than no attention
This is for the girl that you totally ignored and pretended you did not know because you were afraid of being guilty by association, although she was craving a friend and you knew it.
This is for the girl that gave in to sex because a previous boyfriend had dumped her when she had refused him.
This is for the girl that you were jealous of and spread horrible rumors about in order to bring her down...and people only believed them because who doesn't like to hear nasty things about a girl they find threatening?
This is for the girl that had to switch schools because she was growing depressed and engaging in more risky behaviors
This is for the girl who you all looked at as "public property"
this is for the girl that you saw crying  but you didn't care because you thought she brought it on herself
This is for the girl that fooled around with your boyfriend...although he did not mention you at all to her
This is for the girl that thought of herself as nothing more than a whore, so she slept around because "that's what girls like me do. It's what we are expected to do"
This is for the girl who believes she should not wait for right man because there is no right man out there for her. Nobody will ever love her since she is "too dirty"

What you see as a whore is really a lonely girl looking desperately to find someone--anyone--who will accept her. She needs care and understanding, not vicious rumors and the spread of gossip. She needs a friend. By isolating her, she will only become a "bigger slut" because she will be more desperate to find the acceptance and pseudo-love that she so strongly needs.

Even if it's true. Actually, ESPECIALLY if it's true. Us girls must protect each other, for if we abuse each other, then how can we expect guys to respect us and treat us well?

So banish the words slut, ho, skank, cocktease, bitch, whore, etc from your vocabulary. It only brings girls down and invites guys to rape a girl..because--another myth--is that, "Sluts are unrapable because they like it and won't say 'no"

Don’t hang up
Can we talk
So confused
It’s like I'm lost
What went wrong
What made you go
Don’t pretend you don’t know
This is me
I'm unchangeable

When did we
Fall apart
Or did you lie
From the start
When you said
It's only you
I was blind
Such a fool
Thinking we
We're unbreakable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

I've been told
Whats done is done
To let it go
And carry on
And deep inside
I know that’s true
I'm stuck in time
I'm stuck on you
We were still untouchable

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Wake up, wake up, wake up
Cuz I'm only dreaming
Get out, get out, get out, get out
Get out of my head now

Because we’re much better
All together
Can’t let go

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

It was you and me against the world
And you promised me forever more
Was it something that I said
Was it something that I did
Cuz I gotta know
What made me unbeautiful

Make me unbeatiful

okay so i hate my mom. i know everyone always says that, but i really do. she is a bitch. she thinks i am "insensative" because my dad wants to divorce her.....and she wants to talk to me about how to help her marriage but i don't want to hear it because i am her daughter (21 years old) and its not appropriate for us to discuss that! she and me are not close in that way. she is closer to my older sister, who is 23. so i told her "i don't want to hear it" and she went on a tirade about how "insensative" i am, AND HOW SHE DOES NOT BLAME MY BOYFRIEND FOR DUMPING ME A FEW WEEKS AGO! what a fucking bitch! no wonder my DAD wants to divorce HER ass!
i really think SHE is the insensative one, here. not me. 
she told me she feels "sorry" for me because my friends will all leave me given that i am so selfish, but i sense some transference here because SHE is the lonely one...she has no friends or confidants and that is why she wanted to  confide in me.
i did not blow her off and nor was i rude to her like in this post. i was very polite when i told her, kindly, that i prefer not to discuss the marriage of my parents!

You tell me that you love me
How can you do that—lie to my face, again?
How can you look me in the eyes and say you love me?
I stare into your tear-stained, crying eyes
And I see, beneath your blackened eyelashes, you are a cheater
I wish you had just told me what you wanted from me
Don’t you know, baby? I’d have given you all that and more

Don’t you dare cry, shut up, shut up!
Shut up, you don’t get to cry
I fucking loved you
I know you’re crying because of him now
Go visit your fucking boy again
He will wipe my baby’s tears tonight

How can you tell me that you’re fucking sorry?
So easily you forgot about me while you wiped your lips
 Do I mean nothing? Do I?
Hey, get back here, tell me what you expect me to do now
No, don’t give me that shit, stop lying
Your lips disgust me, your tears disgust me
Your eyes disgust me, your hands disgust me
Just tell me one thing now, baby
Was I really that easy to forget? Was I?

Don’t you dare cry, shut up, shut up!
Shut up, you don’t get to cry
I fucking loved you
I know you’re crying because of him now
Go visit your fucking boy again
He will wipe my baby’s tears tonight

I believed in you like magic
You were the only truth I knew
I never thought you could hurt me
Your embrace was like a haven to me
I saw you in the brightest light
Your eyes, the purest of the purest
Because I loved you. Ya baby, I fucking loved you

Don’t you fucking cry, shut up, shut up!
I loved you-damn it
Stop crying, baby you know it’s true
I fucking loved you
Stop crying, you don’t love me
Don’t you dare cry
I fucking loved you

you broke my heart as you watched me cry
and told me to go screw another guy
i begged and pleaded and said i loved you too much
you pulled your hands away and told me "don't touch"
i told you i loved you and would change this time
but you called me a whore and that's a crime
there are so many hurtful things you said 
And I replay it all over in my head
Emotionless slut, pathetic fucking whore.
i know things will never be as they were before.
I'm sorry you trusted me with your values-your heart 
maybe there's a reason why we're meant to be apart
i know you think i'm fucking pathetic, sick
because you think i got over you so quick
i am sorry i told you about it;  i should not have told
i guess i deserve your being this cold
you watched me fall apart before your eyes
just don't do the same when your next girlfriend cries

i cheated on him. he raped me. i cheated on him..


and now he hasn't called me all day.

i just wanted to hear what you all have to say about the Rihanna and Chris Brown incident. and what do u think of her getting back with him? do u think she is a fool? or do you think its good she is giving him another chance? does he deserve another chance?